Sister, this one is for you….
Finished product                                   Close up
I will do a step by step tutorial in the next few days…
From the side
I haven’t posted in quite a while…things were really rocky for a month or so mentally. I was struggling right after Christmas and wondering if it was Seasonal Affective Disorder. Nope, just plain ol depression and fatigue. Taking a new medicine that actually seems to be working unlike the last dozen or so I have tried in the past. Now, this could be a little early optimism here, but I think things look pretty good right now. It’s only been 2 weeks, so I am not going to put all my eggs in a basket just yet. However, I did try something I wouldn’t have if it weren’t for my new outlook on things. I tried out for a solo for the Easter Musical. It’s not even in my normal soprano range, it’s a tenor part and I think I did very well for trying to go outside my comfort zone. (5 days later) I got the part!!! I found out on Wednesday and I am so excited! We’ll see how it all turns out, but for now I am so happy that I made an effort and stepped over that ledge. It feels good to take a risk and see it thru to the end no matter what the outcome.
This post has taken days to write. I start and then stop, clean and then the computer dies. It’s the universe giving back what I give out according to Oprah (ya know, the Secret?) Anywhoo, it’s no secret I haven’t been posting. My sister even asked me if my blog caught a virus? Ha! She’s soo funny.. (hi sister!)
Today I slept in and boy did that feel good! I haven’t let my morning go to waste tho. I cleared off and wiped down the kitchen table, did the dishes, cleared off the counter that served as storage for a LONG time, swept the kitchen, cleaned up the living-room, swept the living-room, helped MJ pick up his toys and return them to the play room, and put in a load of laundry. Now that I have eaten something, I am going to take a shower and then go up to the church to create the Easter Egg Hunt display in the foyer of the education building, so the Upward families can see when it is and they will want to come! Then I am going to go upstairs and decorate our Sunday School room for spring. Lots checked off my list today and lots more to do, but am plugging away at it and doing it little by little and for the first time ever (!) I don’t feel like it’s too much to handle. I can do just enough each day and feel in control and then I need to give it up for the next day. That my friends is a major life change (or should I say chemical balance that I haven’t had in a really long time) for me and I couldn’t be more happy about it.
Thanks for sticking it out with me….I appreciate it more than you know! Muuuwhahh!
what does he do when it snows?? He freezes his ass off that’s what! At this rate he’ll be a size smaller by Sat. Hmm…not bad way to diet if you ask me.
Yes, you heard it hear folks. It is snowing in Texas. Shocker I know. Well, not really a shock, more of a distraction. All the pretty little flurries floating softly to the ground. I just looked outside before I went to bed, and as of 3:12 CST, it was all white and pretty. Makes good snowballs too, which means, if the school system declares this another freakin snow day, I won’t hear the end of it until the kids get to go out and play in it. Please God no. Except for the beauty of it falling and that glorious smell of fresh clean cold air right after it snows, I am begging for summer. I’ll even take the triple digit summer of yesteryear. I am f-f-f-rrreezing people. All I want is my flip flops back..is that too much to ask?
It just keeps blinking at me. The cursor. Waiting. Impatiently for me to write something. I can’t think of anything to say. I end up staring into space and thinking of all the stupid things I have rolling around in my head, but even they get boring to talk about rolling around in there. I’m in a funk. Time to go and see the doctor again. *sigh* This is a yearly cycle I can’t ignore. SAD maybe? I don’t know. I think I would prefer to call it anything else but depression. I just need some sunshine and warmth. I’m cold all the time and tired….who wouldn’t be depressed?
sorry to be such a downer…if it wasn’t for American Idol, I think I would move to Siberia.
It’s been a while since I posted. It’s not that I don’t have anything to say, ( I think I would have to be dead not to have anything to say ) I guess I am just in suspend mode. I read that yesterday was statistically “the most depressing day of the year” for most people. The weather, coming out of the holidays, and financial burdens from Christmas..yeah I can understand that. We are in tight budget mode. I think subconsiously I am not leaving the house because 1. I don’t trust myself not to spend any money, and 2. even if I did go out, I would want to buy something and I know I can’t. So I just stay close to my house. With that are pitfalls. Choosing to stay home means more opportunity to sleep in, stay in my jammies and watch endless hours of craft shows (much to MJ’s annoyance).
What I really want to do is go to the hardware store. I have a small list of things I would like to buy there. Nothing fancy, just some supplies to make some cool stuff with. Like washers and bailing wire and I really want a hog ring plier, but that is more expensive. Hey, don’t look at me like that. I have caught the creative bug and it kills me that I can’t just go out and get some neat stuff and try it. I don’t expect to sell anything that I make, I just like to make it. It’s the process of doing it that is the most fun, well, that and the shopping for it. 😀
Anywhoo….I apparently think that posting on my blog isn’t free and I am on a tight budget you know…even with my thoughts. Besides, it’s pretty boring around here anyway…do you really want to hear all about it? Circle YES or NO.
I no yer tipe. You want to git rid of me. Well you cant! I no ware you live. I have family in yer parts. I gots connections. Just cuz you bring out that big loud machinie thing doesnt meen you can git rid of me I tell ya! all this talk fillin’ little Dannys head, its not rite I say. I loved his pillow. It was dirty and smelly and was comfy. I hope yer happy. I miss him! Whhhaaaaaa! I’m hoping on the first nose back to yer house!
Here I come!
Love,
Dusty the Mite
Dear Auntie Leslie,
I just wanted you to know I gave up my pillow. It was really hard to do it. I was watching TV with Mommy and Lauren and Brenna, we were watching Oprah. A woman was talking about how many years she slept with her pillows, 30 years! That’s gross. I haven’t had mine for that long! There was a man on there who vacuumed up the stuff from inside her mattress and pillows.He was a scientist and was going to test everything for germs. He said that there was lots of dirt and dust in there and some creepy things called Dust Mites. When I saw the picture of the little bugs crawling around, I threw down my stained and stinky pillow and said I would never sleep with it again. In fact, I didn’t even want to touch it. I told Mommy I needed a new pillow and then Daddy took me to Wal-Mart and got me a new one. It doesn’t have feathers in it like the last one, but it still feels like it does. I have a pillow case on it too because I never want to touch the dust mites again!
I knew you would be soo happy to hear my good news!
Love, Danny Daniel
P.S. I did great during my basketball game! Talk to you later!!
My life is boring. Chores, laundry, and cooking. Same day different shit.**(Editors Note)** Same shit different day..man, I can’t even think clearly! Not a whole lot to report. Fight with hubby woke the kids up. Oops. I think I am going to get my period. See what you have been missing? Not a whole lot.
MJ sees the pediatric ortho tomorrow to see if he really did have a fracture in his elbow, hopefully his cast can come off and he will be as good as new. I am not sure how they handle physical therapy for 4 year olds.
I guess Im just to white and nerdy to have anything good to say. Peace out, yo.
It’s been a while…I’ve been a little busy, with Christmas preperations, traveling, Christmas, traveling, New Years, etc. Now I am catching up with all the things I left behind to go to Missouri. I feel so inspired to create, I have gone out and spent waaaay too much money on beads and wire and fun stuff. I’m going to start making jewelry to sell throughout the year instead of the week before. I have made two rings and a pair of earrings so far and I will post the pictures of what I make. I’ll keep ya posted.
I don’t have any new years resolutions per say, but I am watching what I eat and after the first 2 days of being “Oz”ified, I was starving and broke down and ate 4 rice cakes and a ding dong. I need to be eating at more regular intervals. One step at a time. I didn’t get fat all at once, and I won’t get healthy all at once either.
I am eating a new find. Lavash bread. Its a transfat, cholesterol free flat bread with flax, and whole wheat. It tastes pretty good. 1 whole wrap which is about 12 inches long and 7 inches wide is only 200 calories. 2 slices of turkey and 1 slice of good havarti cheese and some romain lettuce and 2 tbs. of ranch dressing and I am good to go. I even let myself have 1 serving of salt and vinegar lays potato chips, as they are now made with sunflower oil instead of all those nasty hydrogonated fats…only once a week tho am I going to have chips with lunch. Moderation. I think that way, I wont feel deprived.
anyway….Happy New Year to everyone. I hope yours is filled with all the people you love, goals you want to reach, and the faith to get you through.
We followed up with the Pediatric Orthopedist today in St. Louis. They didn’t see a fracture, but they found blood in the tissue on the x-ray, so they were worried that it was an occult fracture or hidden fracture, so he is in a hard cast for the next 10 to 14 days. Then we will follow up with our ped. ortho. in Plano and get him squared away. He was such a trooper, he laid there and behaved just like I knew he would. The nurses thought he was a doll as usual, they always do. Only bummer is that we have to bathe him with a plastic bag of course so it doesn’t get wet. That would be bad. He chose blue for his cast color, in Dynaco Blue fashion.
