Playing Catch up

I haven’t posted in quite a while…things were really rocky for a month or so mentally. I was struggling right after Christmas and wondering if it was Seasonal Affective Disorder. Nope, just plain ol depression and fatigue. Taking a new medicine that actually seems to be working unlike the last dozen or so I have tried in the past. Now, this could be a little early optimism here, but I think things look pretty good right now. It’s only been 2 weeks, so I am not going to put all my eggs in a basket just yet. However, I did try something I wouldn’t have if it weren’t for my new outlook on things. I tried out for a solo for the Easter Musical. It’s not even in my normal soprano range, it’s a tenor part and I think I did very well for trying to go outside my comfort zone. (5 days later) I got the part!!! I found out on Wednesday and I am so excited! We’ll see how it all turns out, but for now I am so happy that I made an effort and stepped over that ledge. It feels good to take a risk and see it thru to the end no matter what the outcome.
This post has taken days to write. I start and then stop, clean and then the computer dies. It’s the universe giving back what I give out according to Oprah (ya know, the Secret?) Anywhoo, it’s no secret I haven’t been posting. My sister even asked me if my blog caught a virus? Ha! She’s soo funny.. (hi sister!)

Today I slept in and boy did that feel good! I haven’t let my morning go to waste tho. I cleared off and wiped down the kitchen table, did the dishes, cleared off the counter that served as storage for a LONG time, swept the kitchen, cleaned up the living-room, swept the living-room, helped MJ pick up his toys and return them to the play room, and put in a load of laundry. Now that I have eaten something, I am going to take a shower and then go up to the church to create the Easter Egg Hunt display in the foyer of the education building, so the Upward families can see when it is and they will want to come! Then I am going to go upstairs and decorate our Sunday School room for spring. Lots checked off my list today and lots more to do, but am plugging away at it and doing it little by little and for the first time ever (!) I don’t feel like it’s too much to handle. I can do just enough each day and feel in control and then I need to give it up for the next day. That my friends is a major life change (or should I say chemical balance that I haven’t had in a really long time) for me and I couldn’t be more happy about it.

Thanks for sticking it out with me….I appreciate it more than you know! Muuuwhahh!