Category: Drama Chronicles

Our house in Ingleside, TX is currently has a contact to sell. We were hoping it would be an easy transaction after the couple who is currently renting it decided they wanted to buy it one month after they moved in. Not so much!

After a house inspection, there lender is saying in order to fund the loan, we need to make some repairs. One of those repairs is tenting the house for termites for which the only bid requested was 3,000 dollars.

We don’t have 3K in our pocket to pay for repairs, so it will most likely come out of what little profit we were going to make. Both Jon and I are not very good at handling the stress of this new situation on top of me going to back to work and the normal everyday taking care of things, coupled with the desire to get out of debt and take care of our children’s needs without asking for help.

Let’s just say, I am taking a vacation from life today. Well, at least until 5pm when I need to go set up for a fair at our church.

When did life get so complicated? I have a ask myself when did I start feeling like I didn’t want to participate in my churches activities? Our families health has been horrible this summer. Two bought’s with pneumonia, a second Diverticulitis attack for me, Jon with his never ending sinus infection, and I stopped my anti-depressant because it was too hard to treat me for Diverticulosis while on it. We have missed a lot of church lately on Sunday’s but lately I have been in the building more than I can count. I think I am so focused on a job well done at the expense of my spiritual feeding. I do, do, do for others, but I’m not giving to my own spirit. How can I give to others when I am not filled? I don’t know the answer to that, and if it is going to church today, it’s not happening.

And also? My computer is acting strange. The keys aren’t doing what I want them to do. They beep, and close my windows as I am working or talking to someone on IM. I suspect someone messed up my keyboard and didn’t tell me or something is fried in the hard drive or mother board. It gets super hot if I leave programs running and then acts strange. That is stressful in itself because I live on my computer and its an extension of how I communicate with others. I’m ANGIE*STAR, I need to be able to tell my friends and family information that I steal from the Internet! And also? I hate when I misspell a word and my software editor puts that squiggly little line under the word even though I know I didn’t spell it wrong! Like internet. It needs to be capitalized in order to not have that line. Gimme a break. I mostly can’t stand it because I always want to be right, but the word Diverticulitis isn’t in it’s dictionary and that line is just glaring at me from the monitor screaming that I spelled it wrong! I didn’t…I swear. Anywhoo (that word isn’t in there either! Dang!) I’m going to go take my blood pressure medicine that I have forgotten to take for about a week and go un-puff myself.

Is anyone out there? Don’t you love me anymore? Can you tell I’m doped up on drugs to make the pain go away? Still feel like the stuff on the bottom of yer shoe, but that is waaay better than I felt the day before.

I went to bed last night with a killer headache and my glands are so swollen still that I couldn’t get comfortable enough to sleep. I tried different positions, massage, and even an ice pack. Nothing helped. Finally after struggling to get to sleep with no success, I called Dr. G’s emergency voice mail at 6:53am. At 8:15 or so he called me back and told me I could take a pain reliever and if I wanted, I could come by the office to pick up some samples. I told him I had hydrocodone (generic for Vicodin) already, but wasn’t sure if I should take it for the pain or not. He assured me I could and I was looking forward to getting some good sleep. I took it at 9am and laid down. By 10 am, I awoke with what I can only describe as what I thought a migraine would be. I couldn’t look at any light, it hurt to move my head, nausea, and dizziness. I awoke from a horrible dream that Michael Jon had been running around the neighborhood with his best friend Nana and I kept yelling for them to come home. She was telling me that Michael was lost. I walked around the neighborhood looking for him and finally I saw him. He was sitting on a fence and looked as if he was ready to jump off. I called his name and he looked around and saw me and then jumped down. When he did I heard a loud splash and I ran as fast as I could, which is always in slow motion in dreams. When I came to where he was, he was upside down in the water kicking and struggling. I reached in and tried to pull him out by his ankle and I was screaming for help. I managed to get him out but he was blue and I was screaming…..I woke with my heart racing and felt like I was going to vomit. Thanks Vicodin, you MOFO…

I obviously got no relief for my pain and now I was dreaming horrible dreams about my child. It was like deja vu.  I had a very similar experience back in 94 when Lauren was born and I was in pain from a tear and I dreamt I killed her by putting a pillow over her. It was awful. I vowed I wouldn’t take vicodin again after that. I would treat it like an allergy. I knew I shouldn’t have let my chiropractor give me that medicine. I should have insisted on something else. I was hoping that it wouldn’t do to me what it had done in the past. No such luck.

Anyway, short post turned long…….I called my doc and still haven’t heard back from him. I had to ride the roller coaster of  pain and nausea for 4 more hours until it moved out of my system. I guess sleep isn’t as important as I thought it was, because I haven’t gotten a whole lot in the last 48 hours. Oh well. I think eventually I will be so tired I will just be able to sleep. Don’t know when that will be, but when it comes, I will welcome it!

Now I am up and making up for lost time. I seem to be soo hungry. In the last 48 hours I have only had 3 meals because it hurt too much to swallow. Maybe that is why I had such a terrible headache? Even my nurse friend was stumped when I called her in a crying panic and wanted her to tell me what to do for the pain.

Dan’s sleepover with 5 boys is tomorrow…have to feel better. So I can leave. And spend the night at Nat’s house. 😀 My Mama didn’t raise no fool. 7 boys, small house = crazy. Homie don’t play that.

Cleaning is dangerous to your health. It is, I swear. If you want to save yourself, STOP NOW. Just let someone else do it or you’ll end up like me. Flat on your back with kids running around like monkeys while on spring break.
I was cleaning the kitchen yesterday (Gasp! I know!) and was having a grand ‘ol time. Something I don’t normally do is sweep the kitchen AFTER I clean the counters. I figured it needed to be done, so just suck it up and do it. Usually it doesn’t hurt to sweep. Not yesterday! I bent down to sweep the crap into the pan and when I straightened back up, WHAMMO! serious pain stabbing me in the low back. I was surprised and irritated all at the same time. I didn’t have time to be in pain, I had work to do and my lunch was waiting. Then the pain started to radiate. Down my leg. Then I couldn’t lift my leg up to take a step. Crazy I tell ya. By the time I got to my room to lay down, I could barely get in the bed and find a comfortable position. And of course when you are in pain or can’t move well, you have to pee as soon as you lay down! So up I went. WHAMMO!! More pain. I was gasping for breath with each step it hurt so bad. I didn’t think I was going to make it to the bathroom.
I spent the next two hours laying still and trying not to move and 3 Motrin later, I could actually walk across the room. Long story short, I can move around this morning better than yesterday, but as I sit here in the bed writing this, pain is radiating down the backs of both my thighs and my lower back is throbbing/stabbing with pain.
I called the Ortho doc I saw last year who told me of the herniated disk in my L5, S1 and he can’t see me until Friday at 3:45! I’m pretty sure I can make it, but I hope after all the waiting that he can actually do something for the pain. I have a job to go to on Tuesday and I can’t be in pain. Have to lay down flat, so gotta go.

There is some kind of bug going around…Natalie and her family are sick…spent 2 days with her and 1 of those was with her boys…at my house…hoping I don’t get it. Now I am hypersensitive to all the aches, gurgles, and pains going on within my body. So far, I have cramps in my back, gurgling in my stomach and a headache. Not sure if all of those are related to what’s going around, but I am preparing for the worst. Of course I did dodge 2 cases of strep throat at our house in the last 2 weeks, and a cold that the rest of them got, so I could be in the clear, but one can’t be too careful. Besides, I would really rather spend the day in my nice cozy warm bed, but hey…beggars can’t be choosers….or something like that.

No not really. It’s been a while since I updated. Lots and lots have been going on in our household. We successfully finished dinner theater! Yay! We celebrated Lauren’s birthday! Yay! We are getting ready to see Jon’s Dad! Yay! My Mom is in the hospital! Yay! Er..Boo! Yeah, so well….it’s been a rough, busy, challenging week.

• Mom has some sort of infection, possibly the flu. Not sure until the test comes back. Caught what she thought was a cold and when she was not able to breath, she went by ambulance to the hospital on Wed. morning. She has to get better, she is supposed to be flying out here for a visit. Selfishly…I want her to be able to make it, but if she isn’t ready to come, I will understand. You hear that Mom? We will understand!
• Happy Birthday Lauren my 12 year old!! It was just yesterday you were born and I was trying to figure out what the heck I was doing! New baby…young Mother…now we are both older! Wiser? Maybe we are still working on that. I hope it was a special day for you sweetie! We love you!
• Lots of cleaning..laundry..dishes…vacuuming…to do before Jon’s Dad gets here. Jon and I are going to bust our butts to get it done. Normally we would have done it all by now, but we have been a little busy with all of our activities and such. Remind me next year to practice the art of saying NO….say it with me.. NoooOoooooooo.
• Christmas shopping: Oy. Nuff said.
• Dinner Theater was great. We watched back the performance from Sat. last night. We pulled it off. Biggest production we have ever done and we did the singing with less than 20 choir members and had a childrens cast of over 20 and a drama team of less than 10. It was awesome! I can’t wait to get a video and youtube some of it so you all can see it! I was even happy with my solo performance this year! Normally I would hide my face and think I did horribly. Better to do a lesser part and rock than try for the bigger part and suck!

Jon is home with yummies for breakfast! See ya!