Frustrations

What frustrates you? What makes you irritated? I have a top 10 list.

10. My camera. I get good pictures one day, and the next they suck. All grainy and blurry.
9.   Being a plus size. Hard to find things that others take for granted. Like costumes.
8.   Figuring out what to eat/make for dinner. Hate that. We can never make up our mind!
7.   My new MP3 player isn’t charging fast enough and I can’t listen to my music in the car.
6.   The whining! Oh the whining…the kids, the dog, the husband…myself! It must stop.
5.   Cooking. Nuff said.
4.   Having chores to do when all you really want to do is the fun stuff, like making cards, or shopping. (tough life I know!)
3.   You know you need a pedicure badly when your big toes hurts whenever you wear anything but flip-flops.
2.   The back yard when it rains. Dead grass+water=mud. Dog tracks in mud when ever she goes out to pee. Grrrr.

And the #1 frustration in my life right now…..

1.   Not getting quality sleep until I get my C-Pap machine. Which makes the above things big deals when I am sleep deprived.

**This conclues the Emergency Broadcast Whining System- now back to your regularly scheduled life**

Picture perfect…

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Here is me and Michael Jon at the end of the day…we are sitting over by some hay and a fence near the main house. I love the way this one turned out! Happy Punkin Day!

Happy Fall Y’all!

Michael Jon and I are off to the pumpkin patch this morning! We have been going for at least 3 years now. Debbi told us about it and every time we have gone it’s been a great time. The Big Orange Pumpkin Farm is a nice place to visit to feed the animals, have a picnic, go on a hay ride, pick a pumpkin, and run around the farm and have fun!

I’m off to meet up with Debbi and her Mom….I made Michael Jon a cute new hat to wear for pictures today, here is hoping he actually wears it!

**We are back! It was a beautiful fall day, temps were in the low 80’s. In the sun it seemed a little hot, but in the shade was wonderful! We had a picnic lunch and the kids ran around and got their bottoms nice and dirty. We took the manditory hay ride and wondered where the heck Farmer Rick was! He was rolled up at the end in a bale of hay! All we saw was his legs and feet sticking out! We asked Nana and Michael Jon where he went? Did he go to Wal-Mart? NoooOo..haha.

Let’s see, what else did we do? Ah yes..we watched a long horn cow eat two small pumpkins and her calf trying to have a snack while she kicked the baby out of the way. Basically, Mama’s eatin’ and don’t bug me kid! We took lots of pictures of Michael and Nana on hay, and around the farm. We had a lovely day, and poor Michael was so tired, while we were looking for our pumpkin in the patch, he said, “Mama, I love you, it’s been a really long day!” He wanted me to pick him up and carry him. That option was out, but we did find a cute little pumpkin to take home and took a few last pics.

Here is Michael on our way to the farm, with his nifty hat on!

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Blog-jacking, glitter, and Rain

Over at Random Commands, I updated for Jon. I was tired of seeing the same post up. So I fixerated it. 😀 (waving – Hi Honey!!) Happy Wedding Day Colin and Sarah!! Wish we could be there! Congratulations!!
Last night I was alll by myself. L & B were at a “Movie Star” sleepover/ B-D Party, D was at his friends house playing Star Wars II on X-box and playing Yughi-o, and MJ was at a friends house for a toddler sleepover. All this so I could go and scrapbook while Jon is out of town. Usually he has the kiddos and I stay out as long as I want and I don’t have to worry about the dog or the kids. He falls asleep and then I sleep in cuz I stayed out late. It’s the life isn’t it?? I even got one whole layout done and all 6 letters I needed to make for the Children’s Choir performance tomorrow night. I cut out the letters, P R A I S E out of foamcore in different colors and then outlined and embellished them with glitter glue. They turned out so cute! I’ll have to take a picture of my layout with Tim McGraw and Faith Hill..very cute…if I do say so myself. 🙂
So in order to have a similar scrapbook night this month, I farmed out my youngins excluding the dog. I came home at 8:45pm and let her out and loved on her for a bit and then left to get going on my pages. I came home about 3:30 or so and let her out again and then she hopped on the couch for some soft pillow time. I was done decompressing (hey dont think its all talking, chocolate, and gigglesnorting going on at Scrapbook night, we use some serious brain power planning pages and laughing until your sides ache) I put her back in her crate.

About 7:30 rolls around and she starts whining and making noise. This is the same time she wants to get out during the week, so she would already be out and fed by then. I had only been alseep for about 3 hours, not exactly the time I wanted to get up. 8:30 the phone rings and I shoot up out of bed and stumble for my purse to find my cell phone. Can’t find it. Caller calls back immediately. I think its one of the girls with an immediate need. Nope, it’s my friend who took MJ. She wanted to know what time to drop him off again. I say 10am, which by now seems soo far away and I have more time to sleep. She thought it was at 9am, so she wanted to make sure. Oy. I let the dog out because by now she is flipping out and howling to get out. Drama much? So I let her out, put her outside, shut the door, walked back to my bed, and flopped down to get another hours worth of sleep. Lets just say she wasn’t too happy with me. Oh well. A dogs life can be ruff. Ha.

I am up in time, I pick up the girls on time and make it to church to pick up the boys. I exchange children with Bobby and head inside. When I am done helping out with rehearsal, we get ready to head out to the parking lot. I look across the lot and see that the driver side window is left open on our van. Huh?! I didn’t realy do that, did I? Oh yes I did! I was talking to Bobby before we pulled into the parking spaces and rolled down my window. On a normal day, it wouldn’t have been such a big deal. But today, the sky opened up and poured out a rain we haven’t seen in a loooong time. Complete with sideways windy rain that found its way onto my leather drivers seat and the whole inside of the door panel, including the buttons that make the locks work, the windows go up and down, and the side view mirrors to move around. Luckily everything still works, but I had to run into church and grab some towels to dry my seat off so I could drive.

Five hours of sleep, 4 kids, 1 wet seat, 1 wet door, a birthday party to go to, and a dog who has barely seen us. This is going to be an interesting weekend. Only 21 more hours until Jon gets home. I think I can…I think I can.. I think I can…. sunday school 9:30am -see kids at 10:30 am- sit quietly until Noon – eat lunch – nap at 1pm. Yeah I can handle it. 😀

Roses are red, Angie is blue *warning* Whine coming on…..

Going thru another blue time in my life. Job woes, health woes tend to catch up with you after a while. Jon and I made the decision to wait for me to get a full time job until Micahel goes to school. And of course that means we need to curb our spending habits, eat at home and pay off bills. 2 out of 3 of those things fall on my shoulders as the main shopper/spender in the family. I buy for the kids, for Jon and mostly for myself. Although I must pat myself on I guess my own back because I have realy been careful about what I have been buying and erring on the side of caution more often than not. Now, if I could stop eating our money away by going out and eating at fast food and resturants, then I think we would be ok. If I could stop wasting 15 dollars worth of meat at a time (yes Nat, I mentioned it again..pork chops :P) we would be better than eating out. Some days I am so tired, so had it up to here ^ that I just want to give up. I don’t, I keep going..but it gets old after a while.

Jon might say I need to start taking my meds again, but I really think this time is different. I don’t feel hopeless, just apathetic. I don’t feel worthless, just struggling with where my place is. I am a Mom, I would like to be a working Mom, but with that comes so many complications, that if the “right” job doesn’t come along, I feel less than equiped to be looking for work. Like I am only qualified to stay at home with my kids and not good enough for a paying job. Jon doesn’t put any pressure on me to work. Even in our worst financial times, he supports our decision that we made 13 years ago for me to stay at home and raise our kids.

I think God and I are working on things together, but I tend to take over more than He would like. It’s just so hard to give up control, even though I know He has better things in mind for me than I could even dream of.  I just have to remember that I don’t have it rough….I have it waay good and I am soo thankful for my life.

So, now that I have poured out my random thoughts (should I have posted that on RandomCommands?) I think I am good. Thanks for listening.